Storm

Life isn't smooth for me
Like storm raging on my skies
I tried so hard to get out of it
But seems to be so hard
Everything made me breatheless
I often found myself gasping for air
Why things will turn out in this way?
Not the way I wanted


I know what I want
I tried not care bout ppl's perceptions
But who can really do it?
Ppl used to think I had a good life
But what I need now
Is true FRIENDSHIP
I always got frustrations
I treat them so good
Till I can sacrifice so many things
But what I get?
Is their cold replies
'Did I ask u to care?'
When I ask for their help
'Sorry I'm so busy'
When they are sad they will tell
'I'm so sad '
When I'm sad, they will not reply
or just
'Sorry I can't help u in this.'

What is all these?
Is that what a friend called?
Damn it
I don't need a friend like that
Use me, spend my money, and saty away from me when I need u
Why is it so unfair?
Why majority of my friend are so useless?
That only want to use me?


and there are some
They rarely use me
Yes I'm the stupid one
I treated them so good
Care for them
and what did I get?
I didn't expect them to be extra nice to me
What makes me really pissed off is
they are good and nice to nearly everyone
EXCEPT ME
What a World!!!!!!


Why am I always getting failures and frustrations in friendships?
Always being used always being blamed always being ignored

And yea, this is my blog
let me speak whatever I want