Midnight Rain

My friend, Mr T told to me
There is always gonna be rainbow after rain
I don't seem to be fully agree
Formation of rainbow
Is bcuz of total internal reflection of sunlight in water vapour/ water droplets
If there is no Sun
Then rainbow will nvr be formed

Midnight Rain
Waiting for the rise of Sun
But twilight is still far
All I can see is endless darkness
No boundaries
Where is My Sun?
My friends and people around me used to say I'm so fair
And my face is always pale white
My skin is always ice cool
I remember Mr T even said to someone in class
Do I wrap myself when I go out ?
Hahahaha
No.
Bcuz there are no Sun
I need a Sun


I know Dad and Mom loved me so much
But I always break their hearts
Mom called me 5 times a day
And I rarely show filial obedience to her
Instead, I told her not to call me so often
She said I forgot bout her when I'm outside with my friends
I broke her heart
I'm so sorry Mom


Dad rushed home after work on Friday
He rarely be home at 6pm
Normally after 8pm
Went to my room to see me
But I was playing with my laptop
Video calling my friends
MSN nearly every friend on my list
Even behave so cool towards him
I'm such a bad daughter
Yet he still pamper me, always getting me whatever I want


I behave like a kid at home
Mom was an old minded woman
She never speak out how much she love me
But she show it with her actions
When I'm home these days
She bought all my favourite fruits
Cook all my favorite dishes
Even when I cry to say not wanting to go to her friend's son party
Cuz I was afraid of seeing my ex
She also allow me
She even made herself stay at grandma's hze till night
To avoid her friend's suspect
Bout the reason we were absent to her party
She came to my bed on Saturday morning
I was still sleeping
Cuz I was so tired
She talked to me
and I answer her without patience
I even told her that she is annoying
Cuz she always ask what I ate for meals
And did I do my homework and revision
Sorry Mom
I was afraid to let u know
That I didn't maintain a healthy intake at there
I dislike the food there
And living there is so much inconvenient
I rarely wash my clothes at home
But when I'm at hostel
I washed every single garments with own hands
I hang them and iron them
I even clean my own room
make it tidy



Dad
I was such an useless daughter
I had problem with college
U helped me to settle
I was so weak n coward
I dare not to write to Mr Teo
Who is the Director of my course
I told u that I would rather pay RM150
I knew I disappoint U
How can U rely on me to take care of lil bro?
When u r old?
Since I'm a weak n useless ppl
I dare not to stand strong for my rights
I need ppl to support me


Mom and Dad
I knew U guys loved me so much
I'm so touched
Yet I'm always unsatisfied
Mom always asked me what I really wanted
I don't know
I really felt so empty
I always try hard to think that I'm very lucky enough
At least I have a family
At least I have education
At least I have place to stay
Food and drinks
Clothes to wear

But Mom and Dad, do u know?
I can't feel that there is really someone outside
That really care for me
When I have a problem
There is no one to talk to


No one Cares
There is no Midnight Sun
I don't know whether I can wait till the sun to rise