Worthless

One week passed
What did I did?
Never touch the books that I had threw aside since the last day of t6
Spent whole week watching 5 dramas and uncountable movies
I ruined my own life
Everyone can see me online all the time
right?
Even if You didn't see me
That's because I'm appearing offline
I hate myself for being a lifeless and worthless people


Yea I chose to be in CAT
I overestimate myself
I knew I'm lazy
Since I'm in primary school I'm already like this
Like Jo said
I can do better if I put in effort
but I'm really so so ;azy
That I let myself to be addicted to dramas
That shouldn't be appearing at this time in my life
I know I should give top priority to my final
it's FINAL
But yet I still go out with friends
Spend whole day online


I know it's time to wake up
I will surely fail if I keep this going
But I'm so sorry that I couldn't pull myself out
I don't have the motivation
I'm not a determined person
Maybe like what Dad said, I'm not supposed to choose this path


Dear my parents, respectful lecturers and friends
I'm so sorry to say this
I knew I chose to let go of myself
It's my fault for choosing to not be a better person
I wish i could make a better one
But I couldn't
I have real bad self-discipline
You never see me study
Until the eleventh hour
No effort, No hardwork, Nothing.



Perhaps CAT is really not the best way for a lazy person